Terror

The judgment sets in long before the work ever begins; when the judgment sets deep, the work ceases before it begins.

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Thou shalt not judge is being said to us also for ourselves, and I’d reason, primarily for ourselves—for to love others, we must love them as we do ourselves, assuming we love our lord God above all things.

Drop the word ‘god,’ from the previous sentence and its palatable to most; even adding the word, ‘gods,’ and ensuring no capital ‘g’ and its more palatable to ‘intellectuals.’ There are all sorts of lords we kneel to; the keenest of us are aware of our slaveries—those excesses and deficiencies, which catch us at our worst with ourselves.

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How to reflect the light? To let it burn and shine? Or better to know when the sun would blind the eyes of someone only comfortable with shadows on cave walls? To know when better to seduce to wisdom than impose it; to draw it out instead of impregnate it.

Completion is important, and habit is the terror or the partner of completion. Activity is the harbinger of habit, and feelings are the forerunner to activity - leaving thought the precursor to feelings.

So keeping thoughts shiny allows the light to reflect off what one completes by the habits one forms, and through the feelings that activate them.

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We must abstain from judging ourselves too harshly and be ashamed to catch ourselves whipping ourselves, surprised look on our faces painted with rage, hand in the air as the other clutches the collar of our youngest self.

God help us.